Friday, March 27, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
"And then your heart just breaks"
It's weird. I'm taking a class called Death, Grief and Bereavement. People always have weird reactions when they find out I'm taking this class. They always talk about how "morbid" it is that I would take that and ask why I would want to put myself through it. After I explain that I plan to get my Master's degree in Counseling, they start to understand. They still think it's weird, but they say they understand. The truth is that I love this class and am very excited about it. Death is something that everyone goes through and has to deal with at some point in their lives and I think that the more educated I am about this subject, the more I will be able to help people that are going through it.
I am supposed to be putting together a "Deathology", which documents everything death related that I have gone through in my life and how it has affected me.
Today I came back from lunch and was informed that one of our employees killed himself. He didn't show up to work today or call so our manager went to his home and found him. My heart is broken. We had to organize a meeting this afternoon to tell all of the rest of the employees. Giving that news might have been the worst thing I've ever gone through. Watching the color drain out of their faces as they heard the news made me sick.
It's weird that I've been thinking about death and how it has affected me all day as I've worked on my "Deathology" and then this happened.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
"When you're 14..."
Top 5 best things about living with a 14 year old all weekend
5. She never gets up earlier than 9am so I have the ability to sleep in.
4. She is constantly wanting to play with my hair and "try new things with it" (I love when people play with my hair!)
3. She can take care of herself so I basically got paid to make sure she didn't do anything stupid.
2. Since I'm in college everything I do is automatically cool to her and even to me she makes my life sound more interesting then it really is.
1. She likes all of the music and t.v. shows that I secretly love, but would never tell anyone (Taylor Swift, Rihanna, Paramore and Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill and pretty much every show on MTV) so I can watch and listen to them and use her as an excuse! :)
Top 5 worst things about living with a 14 year old all weekend
5. I constantly feel like a chi-mo becuase everytime I meet one of her guy
friends, she asks me if I think they're hot.....everytime my response was "HE LOOKS 12!!!!!"
4. She doesn't share my love for the Suns or Cardinals, so when I was jumping up and down screaming that the Cardinals were going to the Superbowl, the only response I got was an eyeroll and an "I just don't get football".
3. She has 97 million stories to tell me and she tells them and uses people's names like I should know them. I now know the love triangle between Amber, Chris and Amy, why Sam is such a douchebag and why Alex really punched Jamie in the face, not just the story the Vice Principal knows.
2. Most conversations start with "Promise you won't tell my parents but..." and end with me going to the mall to buy H2Ocean cleaner to heal infected piercings.
1. Finding out that I want to have kids but I never want them grow up to be teenagers where I have to let them go out into the world and make their own decisions. Finding out that I am a complete worrier and dropping her off at the movies for 2 hours had my mind racing about what she was really doing and who she was really going to meet. Can't I just keep them locked up until their prefrontal cortex is fully developed and they can make smart, logical decisions for themselves?